final quarter + graduation at UCSC!
This is the last time I'm writing these wrap up posts, and it's gonna not feel the same because I've kept this routine up throughout my entire undergrad. These are more than just wrapping up each quarter of college, they're honestly like life updates. I'm wondering should I keep them up once I begin working, and if so should I do it in like quarter segments too? There's no natural breakpoints like there are in university. Enough of that, let's get into this last one man it HITS DIFFERENT.
Living off-campus
So with this being the third quarter at the apartment the most notable change is one of my housemates graduating and moving out and its not even a notable change because he was rly quiet anyway LMAO but one of the double rooms split up into the singles.
One takeaway from this quarter is like I started losing weight because I think Winter quarter i was eating way too many burritos from los pericos and bro I woudl feel so full like my belly bursting type full after those meals and turns out i was at 178 pounds when normally im at like 160 range. So the way I dieted was basically just eating 1 meal a day and that saves a lotta time and money too and if I ever got hungry I woudl just drink some yogurt or eat a plantain chip or eat some chips and guac like those arent rly low calorie but idrc. Anyway turns out losing weight is pretty hard like I was playing basketball too and going on runs quite frequently and offtopic rly quick the runs I would go on was just along soquel drive to the soquel city and they have this small, neat downtown and a park with a creek and it was pretty cool but NOTHING compared to last year where we lived near the light house and man those runs were so sensational like it rly doesn't get better than that.
But anyway, now Im at like 165 pounds which is solid but like bro I'm legit eating like under 1500 calories and on some days under 1000 calories clearly like isnt this just so free to lose weight why is it so hard cuz I'm still trynna lose some weight because I'm going to china soon.
Anyway I started having a fear of Burritos too because its like you cant cut a burrito in half and eat each half for a meal cuz its just not enough food and on the contrary its way too much food for one meal, like even after I would play 3 hrs of basketball + lifting. Man I wish I had one last dance at pericos because I like didnt have it all in the past 2 months and I miss that orange salsa I would pour on it.
ANYWAY lets continue cuz I'm planning on making a blog post about food in Santa Cruz and the best options because I've been here for 3 years. I wanna give a shout out to los viejones taco truck, 3 quesa birrias meal because I woudl average like 1-2 of that per week and man when u add that spicy sauce to the birria consume. OK LETS STOP TALKING ABOUT FOOD this quarter I did trips to most notably Morro Bay which is near SLO and that place is pretty cool with the rock and the farmers market was rly tuff. Also made trips to Point Reyes, Monterey, a lotta SJ trips, and there ewas this one day where me and my friends left at 9 AM to go to some SF view points on treasure island and stuff and it was a vibe we got home at like 2 am or something. Also a lot of poker nights that would end at like 4 AM. And a lot of senioritis but also having my senioritis obliterated by my French teacher, youll hear more about that in my next section.
That's all I can really recall in terms of big picture for this quarter. Here's some photos (this is all i have since a lot of them are on my old phone):
Academics
4 classes:
- AM 170B (Mathematical Models 2) (capstone course)
- ART 20L (Intro to Drawing)
- FREN 1
- SPAN 5
So essentially it was my capstone class, my final GE class the drawing, and 2 fun classes: Spanish and French.
AM 170B
This class was my final course for AM and it kinda sums up the whole AM major because this class was so mickey and I think i spent like on average 2 hrs per week. It was basically the professor split the entire class into groups of 4 and we all had to give presentations on our assigned research papers and then expand on them and give presentations on our research and stuff. The class ended 2 weeks early and there was no final or midterm, the entire grade was just participation and doing some work for your slides. There were a couple of moments in there like the day before a presentation where I was grinding my python notebook and vibecoding stuff and waiting for the neural network to run and preparing our presentation but all in all this class was so light and stress-free. I also got carried by my group like there was this one guy that was doing a lotta work and for our last presentation I didnt even have a slide to present cuz like it was overalpping and so yeah this class was so mickey. There's literally nothing else to talk about. Everyone in this class is AM majors about to graduate so there was kinda a community aspect to it like we all kinda know each other from previous AM classes and now were all in our last class presenting random stuff.
Like this class was rly easy grading wise as you can see. I do kinda regret not bullshtting as much as some people probably learned a lot from doing their research projects and stuff but me personally i could not care less and thus this class was so free.
ART 20L
This class was my final GE for this like PR GE and its online async which is nice in theory but the thing is it's a drawing class and so I had to buy materials like a sketchpad and charcoal. They also had this complicated process for scanning the drawings to submit which I didn't do like are we serious, I just took a photo of it with my phone and submitted it like it shouldnt be that deep. And with that minimal amount of effort I knew I would be taking this class P/NP. Turns out even with that I was on the brink of failing this class lowkey which is NOT GOOD because I need this class to graduate. Every week we had to submit like 7 sketches and I wouold straight bs them, like do all 7 of them in 1 hr when you're epxected to spend like 1 hr on each or whatever. So I was at like a 70% or something at one point and I realized I literally needa stop trolling and take things seirously so I started spending a bit more time on the art like make it look nice at least and you know like make it so that it's impsosible for them to be giving me 60% on it. And then halfway thru with the charcoal unit and stuff I started getting 80% and at the end of the day I passed the class with 83%. I did some of the assignments with my friend whos rly good at drawing and so that helped but honestly it was just a lotta BSing and procrasting for this class. I know someone else in this class who literally outsourced everything on a Chinese app for some stranger to do all the assignments for her and shes not even wasting money cuz she doesnt have to buy theh supplies.
So lemme show u some of my best drawings throughout this course.
So these are some of the sketches that I "spent 1-2 hours on" and the baymax one I traced so it's not like I'm actually ok at art
This one's also tuff but I traced it so yeah. The original photo I traced off of was bald so I had to draw some makeshift hair and that's when I realized like drawing hair is actually rly hard. I got 17/20 on this.
And then this was the final drawing it was a remix of the dinner one and youre supposed to employ this "rubbing" technique where basically you put some surface under the paper and then rub the charcoal sideways to create these pattern things. This some og stuff I remember in elementary school I would put like a quarter under paper and shade over it with my pencil and watch the quarterprint show through and be mindblown hhhhh. Anyway this one was rly low effort I just bs'ed the outline with the chips and dip and the sandwich thing and then just found random objects for the rubbing. I used a fan for one of the plates, my keyboard, my wall, popcorn ceiling, and door. And then at that point I just called it a day cuz I needed like 20% on the assignment to pass this class or something I calcluated and I ended up getting 39.6/50
FREN 1
Ah where do we even start. What a memorable class. So I was playing with the idea of also taking French this quarter just cuz it's my last quarter even in college and I had so much fun in Spanish last quarter. And I was in this era of like trying new things out and not being scared and stuff so I really had this mindset of just vibing everything out. ANyway I was even thinking of skipping to French 2 because I have over 10k XP of French on Duolingo 😭😭 but my sister humbled me real quick cuz I literally dont even know how to conjugate.
SO here I was heading into French 1 class. I was on the waitlist so I missed the whole first week and I did the makeup assignments but anyway my mindset is like I have nothing to lose. This class is at 9:20 AM on MWF which means I have to wake up at like 8 AM and so I'm telling myself this is a low cortisol class and I'll just skip maybe once a week and bs all the assignments and I'mtaking P/NP anyway.
Turns out like 3 weeks into this class I gotta head to Ohio and miss 2 classes and I already skipped a couple and pulled up 20 min late to a cuople and the teacher giving me dirty looks when I walk in 20 min late and so I tell her that Imma have to miss class on Friday and Monday and if theres anyway to mamkeup the test and she basically said NO WAY and said she doesnt know if this class is for me if I'm gonna jus tbe showing up late to every class and stuff.
So yeah after that Ohio trip I think I showed up to every class, sometimes I just couldn't get up in the morning and I'd be like 20 min late but basically this class started getting on my nerves and she was so strict about attendance and also I found that I did learn quite a lot in class and every time I wanted to not set an alarm for the nextday, I'd talk myself into it and say that going to class and getting 5 hrs of sleep is worth it. So like half of the time I was sleep deprived in this class. The profesor was also super traditional like we'd have quizzes every class and tests every week and she would hand back the tests with the paper all curled up and face down 😭😭 that had me crying the first time i seen it cuz i aint seen that since high school like ITS NOT THAT DEEP. This is a class full of like 20 and 21 yr olds bro.
Anyway tho even with my minimal effort and being like top 2 threat in the class and being prolly most hated student by my professor I felt like I was better than most ppl in the class at French. Like knowing Spanish helps but at the same time there are a good amount of latin ppl in the class so I think it's just that I'm good at learning languages and the flow of it and stuff. Like there were some horrendous pronounciations I was hearing halfway into the class when we were supposed to have gotten some of the pronounciations down. Also the reason why I said top 2 thread in the class is cuz there was this one girl who would show up literally 40 MINUTES LATE LMAOOOO like on multiple occasions. I remember one time I showed up 20 mins late and this girl still somehow SHOWED UP 20 MINS AFTER ME LMAOOO that made me feel way better. The professor still hated me the most though thats for sure. THere were a couple of occasions where I had my computer on my lap multitasking flashcards and she would press me in front of the entire class. Bro I remember the first couple of oweeks in this class I would have my phone open to search up translations and she would tell me to put it away like this is the first time in college I've had a professor tell ppl to put their phones away. She would get mad at anyone if they had their phones out and bro I legit used it for my own benefit to search up translations cuz I was curious and so I had to sneak use my phone to look up translations like I get that she doesnt want ppl offtask but I just don't agree with this because I NEED TO LOOK UP TRANSLATIONS. I was considering buying a mini french dictionary on amazon to bring to class but like thats too much work. SO yeah taths what I mean when I say this professor is so traditional it really does feel like I'm in a high school class.
Also she's an insane grader like it must be IMPOSSIBLE to get an A in this class. She does drop the worst quiz and worst test and stuff but like I just have to bring up this 88% on the final oral exam because this is PURE HATE. For our final we had this 10 min oral presentation where we're paired up and have to have a French conversation where we just spam greetings and random quesitons like where do you live and what do you prefer, cats or dogs, or what do you do in your free time and that stuff. So this presentation from my perspective was straight GENERATOINAL. I was not nervous at all because this was French class at the end of the day and I had some insane prnounciationsn and I even inserted a "je ne vais JAMAIS au cinema" whgich means never and one time i even said "je dois travailler" and that dois means "have to" which I learned outside of class on Duolingo and overall me and my partners pronounciations were solid tho I could tell some of them I couldn't nail down. But we did not have ONE DEAD SILENT and my partner had some great questions to spam and I had some great questions to spam and we even talked about like how my partner likes to travel in mexico and I said sum "dans le mexique, j'aime manger" and like it was a legit conversation. Like for French 1 standards this is easy a 95% above I don't know how you're supposed to do better than us. We heard the group before us and they literally couldn't even last the full 10 minutes and for us, the professor had to cut us off cuz we went overitme. Sorry I have to go on this rant because this is straight hating by the professor like she just marked us down for some random stuff like vocab and fluency and pronouncation like ight bruh.
But yea I had like a 78% or something at once point and 72% is the failure cutoff but if I fail this class it doesn't rly matter cuz I don't need this class to graduate but at the same time I've never failed a class before and like just that idea of failing a class doesn't sit right with me so I did study up a bit. Mainly I just listened to the duolingo french podcast on spotify while I was driving and asked gpt for some practice. But yeah I bet you out of like the 20 ppl in this class, only like 2-3 ppl got an A cuz she grades so harsh. Obviously I wasn't taking it seriously but if I really took this class graded and I wanted an A I would've had to devote a lotta time ins tudying like every topic for the tests and taking it way more seriously cuz I was just scraping along and doing the assignments and doing the bare minimum.
Anyway so that's what i mean when I say this class is so memorable. At the end of othe day I am somewhat grateful for making what would've been a low cortisol final quarter a pretty serious and annoying one. It was mainly just the timing of the 9:20 AM class that messed up everything cuz sometimes I would go to bed at 2 AM. I learned a good amount of French like I think I'm pretty solid like obviously nowhere near fluent and I can not keep ap conversation but let's say I go to Morocco again, I think I easily have a more immersive experience just being able to ask basic quesitons to the locals who cant speak english and stuff. I hope I don't forget everything I learned, which is kinda hard. I am keeping up on Duolingo which does reinforce a bit but thats about it, idk how else to make sure I don't forget everything, would prolly need a trip to France or Morocco. Also, if I weren't to graduate, I was thinking like would I proceed with French 2 and I think the answer is yes.
SPAN 5
Now we have Spanish class and THIS was so low cortisol. First of all we only had like 1 homework assignment per week. Second of all the classes were at 12 PM too on the same days as French so I'd basically never be late. My professor was also awesome like literally just a Mexican mother more than a professor like you can just tell by looks and everything that shes a good person like thats why I love mexican people because so many of them are just so nice and caring and my professor was literally quintessential of one of htem. Literally all the assignments we could redo to makeup points or turn in stuff late, and I ended with a 92% and I was fine with an A- but she entered it as an A in the transcript like such a W professor and because of that I made deans honors list for a 7th time. 7/9 quarters on deans honors list when it should rly be 8/9 or honestly 9/9 but anyway this one kinda evens out cuz i didnt rly deserve it for this most recent quarter but anyway.
I will say that if you ask me to tlak about some takeaways from what I learned, the volume and impact is honestly just a fraction of Spanish 4. Like most of the classtime was straight BS like we were doingthis podcast thing talking about dynamics between different generations and generational differences and also reading this text "como agua para chocolates". It's ont like in Spanish 4 where we had homework 3 times a week of straight grammar and vocabulary drilling assignments and during class we would just be practicing a ton of grammar. This class literlaly half the time I'd be on anki doing my indonesia flashcards and sometimes i would have an airpod in lmao. The whole class structure felt really spontaneous and messy, like I asked her if we would be learning past subjunctive in this class cuz thast the last grammar concept that i dont know in spanish and she said no and that we would learn it in espanol seis, but she dned up like teaching us the next week and doing some random exercises she found on theinternet and it felt like rly random and she was running out of stuff to do in class so she would just find random obscure grammar concepts. There were some really obscure grammar concepts of like quoting someone and stuff like i dont even know what its called.
But anyway another big shift from spanish 4 was that it went from 4 students to like 25 students and the class was rly full and thus it wasn't as interactive and i coudlnt practice my speaking as much. However, I made some rly solid friends and had a group I would always talk to. Oh yeah like bro in this class there were a solid like 5-6 ppl that were REALLY good at Spanish like honestly basically fluent like i wouldnt be able to tell them apart from native speaker. There were like 3-4 white girls that were straightup rly good at Spanish and talked super fast and that was another contrast from Spanish 4 like yeah there were some really good spanish speakers. One of my friends was this half mexican guy and he was also really good and it was really good practice just talking with him about random stuff. I do wish I coudl've had more immersive experiences and more grammar drilling and stuff but honestly it's good enough and it was extremely low cortisol and such an easy A for the amount of effort I put in.
Tutoring
I had this header for the previous post so lets talk briefly about tutoring. Not much change, I redeemed my "return offer" for cse101 which is algs and data structs. Really great experience just clocking in for 4 hrs a week and most of the time there woudl be like no students. THey moved it to kresge computer lab this time which is right next to this cafe that sells boba so I would lowkey buy boba like every time and cope by saying that im making like 45 bucks anyway but the boba machine kept breaking like there was a solid 2 weeks at the end where it was just broken like bruh but anyway. Proctored for one of the midterms and did grading for the others and honestly not much to talk about, really nice way to earn some extra money like it's super chill. I remember my thursday one would be 3:30 -5:30 and a lot of the times I would gamble and park at the parking lot near the edge of kresge and not once did i get ticketed cuz i think its such a decentralized parking lot.
Conclusion + College Reflection
So that's my final quarter, and my undergraduate degree at college. I thought it would really sink in and hit during graduation, but man it really all started tumbilng down and becoming emotional once I knew it was the final days for a relationship before long distance and also just missing all of my friends. I remember straight crying on the car ride, it was so hard having to process everything and you just reflect over everything and you just think "what a ride". So many beautiful memories and scenes and so many moments that felt so surreal like straight from a movie and it's so hard to process whats next and how things will go next and stuff. I remember at the moment it was seriously so much and so hard, but now looking back man it all got better and honestly it coud've been way worse/painful to say goodbye.
1st year
Man, just imagining my freshmen year self. I was ashamed to be going to UCSC basically, it felt like I disappointed basically all my family and it's honestly deserved because my grades were really mid and I kinda didn't try that hard in my essays and just in comparison to everyone else in my high school like I am at peace with how college admissions turned out. In fact one of my friends whos like USACO plat, insane at oboe, litearlly straight A's, varsity soccer, and also non-asian last name LMAO went to similar tier college as me like it could be worse. UCSC could've not accepted me like WOW whats my other option like U Minnesota or UC Riverside.
Anyway though, I still remember during the summer before 1st year, like we received a mail about like UCSC stuff and it said "Slug Xie" which was really funny and my sister thought it was super cute and I would like smile along but in my heart I felt so ashamed like to be going to UCSC and this was who I was. I remember I didn't submit anything to the "avhs decisions" instagram and i didn't update my bio like everyone else and I just didn't liek talking about decisions because hearing about everyone getting into other schools while I just open up rejection after rejection. However, nothing became really too intense, it was really just at that because there's literally nothing I can do about it. What am I gonna do complain like what is that supposed to help me with. So I just kept proceeding with life and everytime someone would mention UCSC and stuff and when people would ask me where I'm going to college I'd just say UCSC and move on even though internally I wished they never asked me.
So how did the 1st year end up going. I still remember moving into those John R Lewis dorms with my family, and I still remember that last walk over with my parents to the car after we finished moving in everything. And I watched as they drove off, and on thta walk back to my dorm it really sunk in like I'm alone and I'm all by myself with nobody like ive had this before at some summer camps but idk this one hit differnt and I remember I was crying on the walk back to the dorm and it was just so scary.
Freshmen year was so much fun tho, probably the most fun I had. Dorm life is unbeatable and I think all college people should experience it. You know just when you're bored you knock on your firends doors, you play poker on their floor or just have late night spontaneous talks or just start wresting and chasing each other around and random stuff, and encountering them at the floor bathroom at 2 AM and asking them why theyre up. And having that floor chat jsut go off randomly and random beef happening and so much memories. We didn't even have it that goo dbecause half the floor were NPC upperclassmen and so it was really like 4 rooms next to each other that were super tight with each other, but it was so much fun and an unforgettable college experience. So much poker that happened too, we were right next to the rec lounge. And a lotta late night walks to Banana Joes to buy that ABC burger and then go back to my dorm and eat it while watching youtube like idk but that was so peak too. That freshmen year floor group basically ended up being my core friends throughout college. Except one of my rommates which ended up being super iconic like such an integral part of our 1st year.
And then most importantly I think prolly my most impressive achievement of my life, making ICPC NAC as a freshmen in my first try. Now spoiler alert this would end up being my only time LOL but man I didn't even understand how impactful this was at the time but I knew this was something super cracked because we were GETTING FLOWN OUT TO ORLANDO FLORIDA like that tells u that you just did something incredible. And then the NAC itself was so much fun. The food we were eating and the friends we were making it was basically just vacation and feeling proud of ourselves and stuff.
2nd year
So the summer between 1st and 2nd year wasbasically study abroad in Souther Spain + Morocco for like 10 weeks I think, then china for like 3weeks or something i forgot. During that study abroad through UCSC Global Seminars I honestly did learn a lot. For one I just didn't fit in but that's not cope because honestly you can make yourself fit in really easily by just acting more outgoing and putting yourselef out there which I now know. But also a lot of them would just go to bars and drink and stuff and idk like I was still a baby back then and antisocial and that wasn't for me. It was super fun though and I explored a ton of stuff and Granada will always have a special place in my haert like it's such a nice city and I know it super well. And then that Morocco trip like actually life changing and I really want to go back there. Just that first moment when we landed after that boat ride to tangier like it hits you so fast just the sprawing architecture and markets and everyone and how much more you stick out and it's so beautiful and the food is sensational and man I don't wanna get off topic here and make thish posttoo long but this one memory I have of that like sandiwhh I had it was at just some typical like deli type thing where you make this sandwich and im forgettingn details but it was one of the best things I've ever had like it was so good I think they put like some chips in there too or something but the sauce was so good and I can't die peacefully without eating that again but honestly idk how imma be able to find that exact deli again ig I can ask the friend on instagram and dig up the picture yea ill figure that out. ANyway man there was so much to talk about in that morocco trip like basically my favorite country ive been to.
Anyway though, so I wanted to mention that beacuse it is like integral to my college story. But anyway so here I am entering my 2nd year living off campus and this year was such a stark contrast because suddenly its just me and 2 housemates by ourselves with no floormates and we have to walk 5 min and wait and take a 20 min bus to go to campus every day. So going to the class and the gym is now super inconvenienced, and the bus is almost always late, and sometimes its literally full and just skips our stop. I start becoming very pessimistic and lonely, and I also start to feel angry. Like everyone is so dumb in my classes and I don't belong here and I don't deserve to be here and I feel lonely and isolated because we don't have a car and we have to bus to get groceries and theres like no boba in this city and no asian food in this city which im not used to and im paying 1450 to live in a double. On top of that we failed to qualify for NAC and I'm also applying to so many internships every day and everything was hopeless. And UCSC is just so not optimized for college life and I felt like I'm getting robbed of my college experience. It was a pretty rough winter, and I pushed thru it by literally hopping on discord with my friend Ashwin and some other friends like several times a week for hours and playing smashkarts, tankbot, and even among us. That really did push me thru and feel less lonely. Honestly very memorable stretch of time.
And then in February everything took a turn becuase i got that Amazon internship offer and literally life suddenly turned into sunshine and rainbows. Schoolwork wasn't stressful anymore, transportation and everything still sucked but who was I to care about. I remember I started being less stingy about money like with this offer and having EBT I started treating myself better I don't remember exactly what but I remember when I would go to buy groceries id be so stingy and only buy what I need and not buy any of those bs snacks that look intriguing. Man life was just so depressing like i wasn't actually depressed but everything took a 180 once I got that offer. They say the happiest time is the segment between receiving your job offer and actually starting ur job and its so true like I was just treating myself by not caring about schoolwork anymore and just straight having fun all day.
Even with that tho, I still think that I characterize my 2nd year as that huge dip and feeling isolated living off-campus. IIt really added a lotta character development to me going thru that.
3rd year
And so that starts my 3rd year. My internship went well, man so much happened but basically I was overworked and going into my 3rd year I just saw this school year as therapy and relief from what I had to go thru in the internship like honestly it wasnt that bad when I lookat it now after talking to startup and investment banking ppl but at the time it was a lot for me to handle. Anyway tho, the main shift was we moved to Capitola where I'm now paying $1000 for a single but we sacrifice by being even MORE isolated because we literally have to take the highway to go to school, and if by bus its a 1 hr commute with a layover too. However I did now have a car which changed everything because not only was everything more convenient from groceries to food to spontaneous trips to friends houses but also driving to SJ and trips to all around Northern California.
This year is basically just straight sidequesting and making the most of my final year. And then the 2nd and 3rd quarter meeting and being in a relationship and experiencing so much new experiences and learning about myself. I put up record amounts of not caring about school, and basically had very similar schedule to this friend Aradhya who is also AM major and thats who I attribute year 3 to too. But so many random trips, going to shanks apartment to run poker and minihoop and ragebaiting, trying a lotta food spots, so many drives along that california coast, like point reyes, sf, half moon bay, san mateo, SJ, and then ofc Santa Cruz, monterey, caramel, big sur, morro bay. Really made me realize why California is the best State, and man you just feel like you're in a movie. I know i've said this previously but thats just the best way to describe it.
This year was my redemption. 2nd year I hated Santa Cruz, despised it. This year I loved it, and I come out of this city with so much love for this city as I have so much character development here. This city has seen so many sides of me and it's grown me into who I am today. I learned what it means to appreciate something in life and about why it's pointless to be pessimistic, like one of my firneds said that even tho this city is so bad in comparison to all the other UCs, we should sitll appreciate it for what it has and not be so pessimistic because it's a really bad mindset to have a life and all that rly did stick with me and kinda does sum up my epxerience here. Santa Cruz is such a unique city and I think I wouldn't have learned so many lessons in other more fundamental college cities. And also there really is a lot to do here, like outside of the boardwalk just day trips to SF, SJ, Monterey is enough to cover so many weekends. And if you run out of stuff to do you're also close to many national parks and forests and Big Sur and honestly just anytime just driving in any direction along that pacific highway is just so peak. I'm so grateful to have experienced so much of peak California scenery and make the most of my time at Santa Cruz. This 3rd year was so optmized like I did so much stuff and basically checked off everything there is to do nearby. I had so much fun, I had a blast, I truly had the time of my life man. And grew so much and experienced so much.
Graduation
And it all culminates to graduation, where you put on the cap and gown and walk the stage. It was so full circle moment for me because I spontaneously invited my friend poggers from the binarysearch days. This guy was basically my mascot and coding idol like he was so cracked and was so nice and helpful and I interacted with him so much in binarysearch which is basically a wbesite of coding + chatrooms. So he moved to the bay area recently and thus our first time meeting IRL was going to be at my graduation which was so random and exciting. I'm ngl it was like slightly awkward with my family and everythingn just like slightly awkward like looking back maybe i shouldve invited him for just like a 1 on 1 weekend hangout but honestly thres no point on having regrets over things like this. I'm honestly too fried now to talk about how it went but college graduation was so mickey like it didnt rly feel like gruadtaion cuz in high school theres a whole rehearsal and afterparty thing. And here you just show up with your bought cap and gown and it's like super chill and loose-feeling just the whole experience. And when youre backstage about to walk the stage you scan your stage pass thing on your phone and they have an AI voice saying your name so thats how they end up doing the order. Here's my clip where I planned out this LETEMKNOW emote like I'm in this era where I just be trying stuff like this and having no regrets and i kinda botched the emote a bit but honestly I'm really happy with it lmao: https://youtu.be/f_6oTyPJ8eM?t=6962
All jokes aside, I started this blog in June 2017, as a 12 year old in middle school. 9 years later, 581 posts later, look at where we are now.
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